“I love being horribly straightforward. I love sending reckless text messages (because how reckless can a form of digitized communication be?) and telling people I love them and telling people they are absolutely magical humans and I cannot believe they really exist. I love saying, “Kiss me harder,” and “You’re a good person,” and, “You brighten my day.” I live my life as straight-forward as possible.
Because one day, I might get hit by a bus.
Maybe it’s weird. Maybe it’s scary. Maybe it seems downright impossible to just be—to just let people know you want them, need them, feel like, in this very moment, you will die if you do not see them, hold them, touch them in some way whether its your feet on their thighs on the couch or your tongue in their mouth or your heart in their hands.
And there is nothing more risky than pretending not to care.
We are young and we are human and we are beautiful and we are not as in control as we think we are. We never know who needs us back. We never know the magic that can arise between ourselves and other humans.
Cherise sent me an ask challenge, but I can’t post her exact question as it was lost in the universe of the Internet. The idea was to say 5 nice things about myself and then pass on the challenge in order to promote some self love, which I think is awesome. I spend a lot of time thinking negative thoughts about myself, so this will be a good exercise for me.
1. I am becoming more and more brave. I do things that I want to do now, even when they are a little scary. I speak up for what I want more often. I do things that are good for me instead of catering to others. Not in a selfish way, just in an “unafraid to be myself” way. It took 29 years to accomplish this, but I’m almost there.
2. I am a good musician. I used to just be a badass at karaoke, but I have two great friends (who happen to be brothers and fantastic musicians) who push me, inspire me, and make me better. I am starting to take creating music more seriously than just a hobby, and that’s exciting.
3. I have great hair. It’s big and curly and messy and awesome.
4. I feel that I’m good at showing my friends and family that I love them. I do my best to spend time, help out, support, comfort, laugh, cry, and have fun with the people I love.
5. I am good at my job. I teach middle school. I love and care about each of my students, and I work my ass of to make sure they have what from me to be successful.
I lost 2.2 lbs this week for a grand total if 25.2 pounds! YESSSSSS.
I feel so great about that, I don’t really know what to say about it. This new confidence is something I desperately needed. During a rough few weeks in which I feel like I do nothing right, it’s nice to feel some success. Looking forward to continuing this!
Everyone who doesn’t have a significant other with them right now, has a smartphone. & that smartphone in the next 25 minutes will prove to be the most dangerous thing in your possession. Cause when you leave this show, you’ll be full of love and that love’s got to go somewhere and that love will travel the path of least resistance; that love will go to the place you’re most comfortable in which is probably your past. You’re likely to go home and text somebody from your past and ask them to rejoin you once again in the present and I just wanna tell you right now that I think that is a great idea! I think that if you need some love tonight cause you heard love, and felt love, and sang love, and you know where to get it, even if it makes tomorrow a hell of a time, do it tonight!
“Are you up?” “Come Over.” “Are you awake? Can I see you?” Yeah, you should do it! You should write it and you should respond to it, cause life is too short to act like you’re better or smarter than knowing how love works. So just go with it! & this is a song about going with it…”
John Mayer before Edge of Desire (my favorite JM quote right now) (via eatsleepjohnmayer)
“I want to be around people that do things. I don’t want to be around people anymore that judge or talk about what people do. I want to be around people that dream and support and do things.”—Amy Poehler (via quotestuff)
“there is something
beautiful in her
I don’t know
if it is the sun beams
in her eyes
or the poorly lit
of her heart
maybe it is the shadows
stretching to show
on her skin
freckles and imperfections
or just that
she dances in both
the light and the dark
kissing the ground
thankful just to
“Sometimes you meet someone, and it’s so clear that the two of you, on some level belong together. As lovers, or as friends, or as family, or as something entirely different. You just work, whether you understand one another or you’re in love or you’re partners in crime. You meet these people throughout your life, out of nowhere, under the strangest circumstances, and they help you feel alive. I don’t know if that makes me believe in coincidence, or fate, or sheer blind luck, but it definitely makes me believe in something.”—
My mom was doing Weight Watchers with me, but has given it up over the last two weeks. When she wants to have dinner together, she no longer monitors/measures the little things like butter or sour cream and it makes it super hard to calculate points. I know I could just do it myself, bring my own food, whatever else. But what’s hard is that I feel like I’ve lost my support system. Once again, I’m doing this alone and have no one to hold me accountable or help me out when I’m struggling. :(
I lost 1.8 pounds this week for a total of 23 pounds! 23 is crazy! I’m so excited!!!
I’m really glad I broke through that one pound a week plateau. But then again, losing a pound a week is not a plateau. So here’s my next goal: Change my expectations. Weight loss is not going to continue to be as fast as it was the first few weeks. And that’s okay. I’m losing, and I’m losing steadily. Also, I’ve changed some of my bad habits and have learned to look at food in a healthier way. That’s exactly what I wanted. Now I need to make peace with the fact that this won’t happen overnight. Help, Tumblr! Advice on how to quit feeling disappointed in slow progress?
I lost 1 pound this week for a total of 21.2 pounds!
Okay, let me first say that I am super proud of myself. 21.2 pounds is a big deal. The fact that I’ve stuck with something and formed better habits is a HUGE deal.
But real talk, I’m disappointed in myself this week. I had a two pound goal I could’ve easily hit. But my Friday night cheat meal turned into a cheat day, which turned into a cheat weekend. I got lost for a couple of days there. Given that it’s been 9 weeks, I think I’m just adjusting. The newness of the program has worn off, and the struggle has set in.
However, I still lost a pound. And I’ve managed to get back on track without spiraling and giving up. SO MUCH PROGRESS, Y’ALL. My kitchen is full of healthy real food from my Whole Foods road trip with Mike, and I’m ready for this week. Good things are happening.
uno is a great card game it’s just filled with smiles and laughter and numbers and colors and everything is right in the world until someone skips you because then it gets real fuckin personal real fuckin fast